thank you, God, for blessing us with yet another long weekend!! yay!!

i still have lots and lots of things to do - office stuff - but i'm super duper happy that i'll be doing it here at home... :) i seriously pray that time will come that i'll be able to bring the office home... haha!! i mean, i love office work but i just don't get why i have to be physically present at the office when i can do everything i have to do at home. i hope i make sense to you. haha!!

anyway, i guess, it all comes down to the people you work with - not the work itself.

and just so you know, i am well aware that my previous entry was also something about work... so, yes. there is something fishy going on. :)

as i was saying, it all comes down to the people, not the job. you may already have your dream job, but if the people around you are pulling (or pushing, whatever) you down, that dream job may as well be a job from hell. say, you're like me who, just landed a great job, but later found out that the environment is "unfriendly", wouldn't you want out?

or what if you just accepted a job offer because it was the only offer given? you dreaded the thought of the job, but when you met your colleagues, you fell in love. would that be enough for you to stay?

i used believe that i work better when alone. i thought that i was not a team-player, and maybe it's true, because when i was a call center agent, i worked for myself. i know that in call centers, we are placed in teams, and we must work hard for our team... but in the end of the day, you always do good for you, if your team benefits, then good. but it all starts with you.

with that kind of thinking, i was sure that office work would be a breeze. you wouldn't be in a team if all you had to do was paperworks, right? right. but after a while, i get so bored very often... i find myself doing nothing. and then, i caught myself waiting - waiting for my officemate to give me purpose, to give me something to do... it was then that i doubted myself... maybe i was wrong... maybe i do not work better alone at all... maybe i really needed someone to get me going. but, no. i realized that that wasn't the problem, the problem was, i did not know what to do. i did not know my purpose was (more like, is)for that office. because unlike call centers, the government apparently just throws people into the sea of officework, in the hopes that they will learn to swim amidst the pile of paperworks and discover how to keep their head up to keep from drowning.

being thrown into the sea isn't such a bad idea if you have a lot of officemates who would offer to share their lifejackets with you, or offer to let you board their yacht of knowledge. but not so easy in a school finance office, where the only other employee, is the veteran bookkeeper who would let you put your arm over her boat, but would not let you board all the way. so you end up doing what you are told, when you are told to do so. that would actually translate to a lot of idle time spent at the office at one time, and having to do overtime at another time, which means you spent a lot of time staring at the ceiling of your office when you could have played with you babies at home, and worse, you have to spend more time at the office because of the overtime needed... do i make sense?

what i just actually want, is for me to know what my duties are. what do i have to do? what do i have to prepare? what is my function?? what is your favorite color? haha!!

this isn't the end, there will be another job-related post tomorrow (or the next day)... ttfn! :D