BBG!!!

What's in a name? that which we call a rose

By any other name would smell as sweet...

yey!! it's been two months and two weeks since i gave birth to a Bouncin' Baby Girl (hence the title. lol.), and it has been a blast! don't you just love watching a baby sleep? sneeze? smile? hiccup? well, don't you just love everything a baby does? from opening their tiny little eyes to giving you a huge burp after they have finished their milk? :) oohh!! i just love my baby!!

by the way, i wanted to share with you my daughter's name... Calliah Cytheria. :) that's why i borrowed shakespeare's lines.. :) Calliah means "beautiful", although some sites say it "beautiful voice"... i have no complaints there. beautiful and beautiful voice is great. Cytheria is venus' other name... so basically love and beauty. lol.

here's a couple of pics of my beautiful baby girl... :)

for macky

i sit and watch the sky

thinking of the time that has gone by...

i think of you and me

and go to the beginning of our story.

you were just a new face then,

someone who i thought could be my friend.

i never thought that we would be

husband and wife, building a happy family.

funny how life and love works -

if not careful, you'd sure be hurt;

and just when you're about to give up,

fate gives you one last love-cup.

time indeed goes by so fast

but i know that we sure would last,

for everyday i love you more and more

and i still would, even if we'd have children of four.

random thoughts

i am about to give birth to my second child in a matter of days. i am truly excited! however, i am also full of worry... you see, my first born was delivered through cesarrean section, and now, as expected, the second will be the same. early through this pregnancy, i believed that i can have a normal delivery the second time around, since this is widely practiced nowadays.

i first went to see my ob-gyn on december - i was about 3 months pregnant then. she knew about the cesarrean section but did not mention anything about how i was supposed to give birth... when i had my first ultrasound last january, i was informed that the baby is smaller than expected... that's okay. my mother always tells me that it's alright to deliver a small baby because i can always fatten her up after she is born. :) that increased my hope for having a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarrean), since my baby is not that big, i have a higher chance of having a normal delivery... or so i thought.

i was regularly seeing the doctor for 3 months, the i had to stop because i had to relocate. i had just found new ob-gyn in my area a few weeks ago, and she told me that i have to have a cesarrean section again because. she ordered me to have an ultrasound again to check the baby's size.. and lo and behold, she is big! well, maybe not that big, but above average big... and what's more, she told me that i may be having the operation on the 16th, the latest would be the 20th. i honestly am not prepared.. haha! i had my mind set that my baby cho (korean for second) will have the same birth month as my first daughter, which is july...

anyway, i am glad that baby cho will be here just in time for father's day.. i'm sure my hubby will be happy to have another gift of life for father's day.

on love and fairytales...

every little girl has a dream - to have her very own fairytale. i was once a little girl, and i, too, had this dream. i mean, who wouldn't? after hearing cinderella's story on your father's lap, wouldn't you wish that you were her? sure she was enslaved by her sisters and step mother, but wouldn't you also go through that, as long as you know that you would have the same ending - happy ever after with your prince charming? :)

ok, so maybe not every little girl wanted a prince charming... but one thing is for sure, every little girl wanted to the the princess. every little girl wanted to have her very own tiara and her very own castle, where her every whim is obeyed. but this doesn't stay like this, that little girl will grow up, and eventually, would like to have the prince.

well, it comes down to this simple fact - a girl, regardless of age, wants to be someone's princess. she wants to be pampered and cared for by one special guy - her prince. a girl wants to be wooed; she wants romance. she wants to feel that she is special, and that her prince would gladly battle a witch or a dragon just to keep her safe and win her heart.

my fairytale isn't like cinderella's or snow white's... mine is, well, not grand. it all started when i went to cebu city to work in a call center. i had no intention of looking for love at that time, i was there for work, and work alone. but fate had a different plan.

it really is true that love will just find you. you don't have to search high and low to find love for it will present itself to you, in the right place and time. you also don't have to plan the course of your relationship because more often than not, your plan will fail. just go with the flow, and take it one day at a time.

there is so much that i want to say, maybe mostly because my brain is lacking oxygen at the moment (see previous post), but i don't have the energy to organize my thoughts at the moment. so, in a desperate attempt to busy myself, here i am rambling about this and that. :)

anyway, to conclude this rambling session, i just want to share that even if my fairytale isn't exactly how i imagined it to be (long and romantic courtship, engagement, grand wedding, happy ever after... in that order...), i am still blissfully happy. happy and thankful for having been given a loving (though sometimes abnormal) husband, whom i know loves me and my family, and is willing to court me for the rest of our happy life. :)

alive, awake and hardly breathing...

it's 4:22am on friday, may 27, and i am still wide awake. i actually have no problem about being awake at this hour, but today is different... i am awake and having difficulty breathing. yes, i am having an asthma attack.

i knew that this is inevitable... i knew that i only had a couple of puffs left in my inhaler last night, that's why i asked my mom to stop by the pharmacy and buy a new one... but she didn't. she might have forgotten it, or, she purposely did not buy one for me since she always insists that i stop using my inhaler. according to her, my inhaler keeps me fat... haha!!

anyway.. here i am, typing furiously, making an effort breathe and trying to resurrect this long forgotten blog, while desperately searching the world wide web for anything that i could do to help me in the predicament that i am in... in case any of you is interested of my find, here's the best ones yet:

1. Breathing Exercises – Breathing exercises are a safe and usually effective asthma attack treatment, one that does not involve drugs or side effects. Breathing exercises for asthma must be learned and practiced regularly for them to work as well as possible in preventing an attack and symptoms.

2. Steroid Inhalers – Steroid inhalers can be very effective with brittle asthma and many other types of this condition. These inhalers reduce inflammation using corticosteroids that are inhaled into the airways, so you can breathe with less difficulty.

3. Chamomilla – Chamomilla is one of the many homeopathic asthma remedies which are popular, and which work for some people with this condition.

4. Coffee – A common home remedy for an asthma attack treatment is coffee, the stronger the better. While this may not work for a severe attack, often a cup of coffee may short circuit an asthma attack before it becomes full blown and the symptoms worsen.

5. Epinephrine – Epinephrine is a common key ingredient in asthma medications over the counter, and is frequently used to control asthma without requiring a prescription or office visit costs.

6. Theophylline – One popular asthma attack treatment is the drug Theophylline. This is one of the most common prescription medications used to treat asthma, and the drug works very effectively in most patients to open the airways,

7. Vick’s Vapor Rub – For some individuals with asthma Vick’s Vapor Rub may provide some relief. This product is rubbed on the entire chest area, and helps to loosen and relax the muscles and tissue around the airways so breathing is easier.

8. Acupuncture -Acupuncture is one of the natural asthma cures that provides relief for a large number of people. This method has been used for a very long time, and is both safe and effective in most cases.

9. Steam – Steam is a popular home remedy for an asthma attack treatment. Water can be boiled on the stove, with the person having asthma leaning over the steam rising from the pot. A hot shower may also be successful in lessening or eliminating the attack.

10. Herbal Remedies – There are some herbs which may work to treat asthma, and these may be safe in most situations. If you take any medications you should always check with a doctor or pharmacist before taking anything new for the first time. Although usually safe, some herbs may interact with some medications and cause problems.

okay, so i actually tried two that are readily available, vick's vapor rub and coffee, but i am still here, still huffing and puffing and listening to the wheezing sound of my breathing.

oh, and did i mention that i am now pregnant? yup, i am! and as i am typing, the little bundle of joy inside of me is doing somersaults, as if to say, "mama, i need some oxygen here." for lack of something to do, i also researched the side effects of using an inhaler during pregnancy, and i have found out that, lo and behold, breathing is important. haha!! and the risk to the fetus from a mom not having enough oxygen outweighs the risk of the medicine.

i am actually aware that asthma inhalers are safe during a pregnancy because i was still using mine during my first baby, but not to the extent of how i am using my inhaler for this second pregnancy... i mean, before, my ventolin would last 2-3 months, but now, my asmacaire would run out in 15 days. seriously.

it's really getting harder to breathe now.. :'( i'll do what i can for now, hopefully i can get my hands on an inhaler in a couple of hours. for now, i'll just sit and watch the sky as light begins to peep through... or write about another something later...