nov 30

long time no post, eh?! lol.

i should have posted long time ago... but the internet connection at home has been down since FOREVER!!! damn!!!

anyway, these past few weeks were like hell!! emotionally... i don't know why i've been feeling so down lately... i guess something stirs my emotional side when i have nothing to do at home... it gets me to thinking, you know...

i wanna rant about how fucked up i felt (and still feeling) but my time is limited... only 10 mins left before closing time... harhar!!! i'm now at a local internet cafe, and it's 10pm already... hihihi!!! maybe some other time for rants...

anyway, i finally got to read the stephen king book i bought ages ago... i have tried reading that earlier this year but i just didn't get the feel of it until last week. and it turned out nicely!! stephen king is such a brilliant writer!!!!! so much suspense!! whew!!! there was even a time where i just couldn't sleep... not because i wanted to read till morning, but because i was so scared!!!! talk about scaredypants... harhar!!!

i still have messages to reply to on friendster... so tah-tah for now!!!! :-)

nov 16

we went out today... me, onna and agot.

actually, it was supposed to be only onna and me because agot already went out yesterday, but she insisted that she come along, so i let her. we just went to jollibee to have lunch. lol.

i wanted to take onna out of the house and go somewhere so could be surrounded by other people. i was planning to bring her to the "mall" so she could play at the arcade, you know, just to ride on the carousel... but since agot went along, i had no more extra money after lunch!!! lol.

we saw onna's father at the fastfood. she calls him "pappy"... i don't know why she's fond of calling her that. i could see that she misses him. she asks "sa'n pappy?" or "where's pappy" whenever he's out of her sight. she doesn't look for him if he asks permission to leave though...

i don't know what goes on on his mind... i know he loves onna dearly but it seems he takes her for granted. maybe he really is too young to handle such responsibility at the moment. still, i'm quite happy for him coz it seems that he is finnaly seeing things clearer now. he told me once that he wants to go to school next school year.

hmmm... i'll post about the state of my heart tomorrow. :-)

nov 15

my life is soooo boring!!! i'm not in school anymore, and i still have no job!! :sob:

so many problems surround me!! sometimes i think i wanna die already... :( but i can't. i still have too many responsibilities on my shoulders.

anyway, i changed my friendster layout today... i find having an overlay (and a pretty one at that) is such a hassle. people who view my page sends me a message and ask me to make one for them... it really isn't much, but if you have to make 20 different and personalized web pages, it gets to you. :-)

i'd mae overlays but i'd post it on my other blog. that way, anybody could use it...why can't they teach themselves how to do it..? i mean, i learned THAT way. but i still find it amusing that about a couple of months ago, i was "scavenging" for html and css knowledge... and now, my friends thinks i'm a genious or something!! lol.

i'm kind of tired... lol. tired of doing nothing. tired of being stagnant. i hope i can put my knowledge and skills to use soon. :-)

date

Never Date an Aries

Impatient, restless, and selfish - it's a lot of work to make an Aries happy. And if you drop the ball, your Aries will be gone faster than you can say "I'm sorry"! Instead try dating: Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, or Pisces

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

nov 14

You Are A Chestnut Tree

You are a born diplomat with a well developed sense of justice. And even though you're impressive and intimidating, you're also fun to be around. You can be irritated easily, and you sometimes act superior. Nevertheless, you are sensitive of others feelings and very loyal. Sometimes you feel misunderstood and are fiercely close to those who know you best.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

nov 13

the day is almost over... :D

first, i'm so happy coz many of my friends still remeber my birthday, considering we don't have much communication now coz we lead our own lives. i love all of them dearly!! :D

hmm... just as i thought!! my mom and my other siblings totally forgot about my birthday! but thay're all forgiven. they were all busy preparing for office and school this morning.

my 2 exes (yes, there's only two of them), also did not forget. one came here to greet me at about 10 am. and the other called me up at the same hour. the latter actually wanted to treat me today, i just didn't give him a chance... or maybe i should have? :D i'm glad we all remained friends... i know not all lovers end up as friends.

jay's mom adviced that i should burn a pink candle in church... for love. lol.

my mom, my siblings and i went out for dinner to celebrate. i thanked my mom for treating all of us. i know i am my mother's favorite child. :D we don't eat out any of my siblings' birthdays, we just cook special food here at home. and also, she's still protective when it comes to me. just last week, i had to go out to rent a PC coz there was no internet connection here at home, and by 6 pm, she was already texting me, asking me to come home. she isn't like that to my sis and bro. hmm... maybe being eldest means i ahev to grow up fast to handle some responsibility, but remain a child at the same time. :D

i have also finished and posted 6 layouts today. thanks to the new image hosting site i didcovered. lol.

i'm still kin of sad coz jay didn't call... i sort of hoped that he'd call just to greet me. i guess he's still at sea...

well... that's all for today!! i have to give up the PC coz my bro wants to use it. :D

God bless me!! and you as well!! :D

birthday!!

this is refreshing... :D it's only 7 in the morning, and here i am, blogging already... lol.

i'm just in a good mood this morning... thanks to the people who were already greeting me at 12 midnight!!! lol.

i wanna jot these people down here so i won't forget who greeted me first this year... heheh!! so, the first one was gladys at 7:40pm last night; maricel, at 9:45 pm last night; mark at 12:01; cianne at 12:08; ynz at 12:09; jade at 5:34 this morning; rodel at 6:14; and tita emee at 6:17 in the morning. :D silly me... anyway, i just want to remenber those who remembered. and yah, my sister greeted me at 6:05 when she woke up... lol. the other siblings didn't... oh well, maybe they'll buy me gifts later (i wish!!).

i also wanna make a list of the things that i want to change in myself... kind of a birthday resolution... coz every new year resolution i make isn't quite followed, i figured maybe a birthday resolution would make more inpact to me than the other. lol.

okay, so within this year, i wanna be a new me. :D i wanna be leaner!! i wanna have a job. i wanna have a clearer view of my future. i wanna leave all the negative vibes that i have gathered through the past year behind me. i just wanna be happy. i guess that's that!!

and yeah, my bestfriend didn't forget my birthday... :D

i'll be coming back tonight for more... lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

nov 12

time for bed!!! :D this blog is becoming my daily diary... lol. this is my therapy... i can't do this at the other blog community, for the simple reason that i post fiction there most of the time. :D

anyway... this had been a good day. we watched marathon disney animations!! harhar!! and some action movies as well...

my siblings and i played jacks ans stones when the power went out at around dusk... it was fun!! but i think pick up sticks and scrabble would be a lot more fun. but my siblings don't dig those kind of games.

and oh!! i was browsing some friendster profiles earlier, and i found another site that gives away free pre-made layouts. so i browsed at its free layouts to get some good ideas for my site, when akas!! i saw a couple of my own layouts (posted on my site and at my contributory site), being credited to someone else!! i smiled... i know things like these happens, so i'll just take it as a compliment... someone liked my layout enough to credit it to his name! :D and besides, when i checked it out, i found out that my credits were still on the codes.

i still haven't posted new layouts for my site... i can't understand why i can't upload images!! is it my pc?? i can't upload on imageshack, imgdump, nor photobucket!!! i don't know what to do anymore... can't make new layouts because of this predicament...

hmm... another day is through. tomorrow is another special day for me!!! :D

anniversary

an hour and fifteen minutes to go, and the day would be over...

:( this is so sad.. i guess i have expected too much for him to call.

i just can't help it you know... deep inside i know that he won't be calling today, or anytime soon for that matter. i guess i just hoped (a little too much) that he'd be able to call on this special day...

well, there's nothing much i can do now but reminisce a little...


okay, so we knew each other since we were in the fourth grade. we were like the "love team" of the school back then. we grew up and grew apart during high school for we studied in different schools.

we had some communication during college, but we led our own lives and had our own relationships. we never really told each other what we felt but we knew it in our hearts. we were open about our relationships so we knew what the other was going through.

earlier last year, both our relationships failed at almost the same time.

i guess destiny (if there's such a thing) wanted us to be together at this point of out lives. it just hurts a little because though we're together, we are still apart.


anyway, no use getting so dramatic over things i have no control of. i just have to deal!! :D

1st post

tomorrow is our anniversary!! yey!!

hmmm... i'm still crossing my fingers whether he'll call or not.

you see, my jay-ar is a sea-farer... he's been away for 8 months now, and he had called me only once during this span of time, and one email, too. sad, i know... still, i can do nothing about it. :(

anyway... it's late here already.. and i'm not in the mood for a lengthy post, so i'll post this forwarded e-mail instead. lol.


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this is funny...

A Minneapolis couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel plans. So, the husband left Minnesota and flew to Florida on Thursday, with his wife flying down the following day.

The husband checked into the hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an email to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her email address, and without realizing his error, sent the email.

Meanwhile, somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a minister who was called home to glory following a heart attack. The widow decided to check her email expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she screamed and fainted. The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:


To: My loving wife

Subject: I've arrived

I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now and you are allowed to send emails to your loved ones. I've just arrived and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing you then. Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was.

P.S. sure is freaking hot down here!!!